The other day I looked up my final grades for this semester. I earned an A in both Intro to Mass Media and Video Production. I know I deserved it in Video Production, but I wasn’t very serious about Intro to Mass Media, so I rarely went to class. I compensated for this by participating when I was in class, sending my professor relevent articles and ads. If a professor remembers your name and knows you better than most of your classmates, he or she is going to feel guilty about not giving you the A when there’s a doubt about your attendance. At least that’s what I think.
Next semester I am taking two online classes, Sociology and Film Study. They will knock out two general education credits I need. I want to also take an Econ class online, but they only offer one and it’s already full. I’ll try to watch on the drop dates (for non-payment) and hopefully I can get into it, but I already emailed the teacher and she had no interest in taking on an additional student. Maybe it’s a sign I should not take the class with her.
I’ve been thinking a lot about school lately. I’m thinking about if I really want to continue with a major in video production/ broadcasting (Gasp!). Thinking about if I really want to play that near-starving artist role, work for shit pay for ungrateful producers and directors until I can work my way to the top. Thinking about the fact that I already have 1.5 years towards an engineering degree. I can’t deny it, I really am a science nerd. My favorite magazine is Discover. My brain likes learning, it likes data. I really like video production, but crunching numbers and calculating is far easier for me than trying to explain to an actor what I need him to do in this scene. When I like the way a project turns out (which I rarely do) it’s an incredibly rewarding experience, but it is hard work for me.
So I have a lot to think about, and I’m not going to make the decision before the end of spring semester. About a year ago I thought about changing what my career goals were because of this neurologist told me I shouldn’t sell myself short and that I should aim for an engineering degree again. If I keep going back to thinking about engineering, maybe it is the right choice for me. I just wish I could cut back down to working one job so that I can go to school full-time. I don’t want to complete my degree 5+ years from now.